i went on my family blog to find this picture of when all my little ones wore matching doggie outfits and the memories were so emotional for me.
to see all the pictures of my kiddos from a couple years ago was really surprisingly hard. why? maybe with that chapter gone, and knowing it won't return. even though i still have little ones, i won't have an infant again. i'm hoping this is a normal feeling of saddness, as you see stages in your life pass that you know won't return.
right after ashton came home from the hospital after being in the nicu for almost a month.
my little angel, maya! (not so little anymore though, and I couldn't find a picture of her with me :(i think at times like this i need to try to cherish the times i had but focus on the moments now to create more lasting memories for the future.